So Josh is on the plane home, and I'm feeling the expected crushing loneliness. Last night was worst; I hated myself for it but I could hardly look at him because it hurt so much knowing he was leaving. It's weird walking into my room and finding it empty after he was here so long. But it's only a bit over a month until I can go to Cali, so there's light at the end of the evil long-distance tunnel. posted
by jub at 6:22 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2004:
Hey look kids!
And in case you can't see in that photo...here's an ever so slightly clearer one!
Jub fished up a monster!
Trev is intimidated by Jub's presense. posted
by jub at 6:55 PM
Friday, January 30, 2004:
Yep, I surely do love dancing to the new Britney Spears song, and I would still sleep with her. Little changes. :) posted
by jub at 8:14 PM
Monday, January 26, 2004:
I've been deferred by Oberlin. For non-Americans that means they'll make their final decision on me along with all the regular decision applicants. Basically it's just a rejection from early decision, and now I have to compete with thousands more people and wait til April 1st. I guess I don't have the outstanding credentials needed to get in early, which worries me because Oberlin is a place for outstanding people. :{
I used to say deferral was the one decision I didn't want because it'd mean more waiting, but my reaction to a small envelope proves the decision I really don't want is rejection. Only 2 more months to wait... D: posted
by jub at 2:21 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2004:
It feels like there's a Brillo pad under my arm! So finally here's an update. My exams are over (until Feb when I have mocks :{) and they went reasonably well. I lucked out in the Hard Times paper as the extract was the one I could clearly remember from the whole book. The speech analysis was a bit harder but hoefully I bluffed my way through without too much difficulty.
Got home on that Thursday, pleased my exams were out the way and there was a message from my uncle on the machine. My gran's in hospital with an infection. D: It isn't life-threatening but it's still a worry. She's having the operation later this week I think, and my dad will probably visit at the weekend. He asked if I wanna go but I don't handle hospitals too good so I'm gonna just write a letter.
Soooo....12 days til Josh is here...HOLY SHIT! :O posted
by jub at 11:33 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2004:
I had my first AS exam retake on Friday, modern poetry. It didn't go so badly, at least there was a quest I could tackle this time. Had to bullshit about "beauty" which wasn't too hard. I don't expect an excellent grade but that's fine, at least I've had another try and done better than I did last summer. Sociology and Hard Times await on Wed and Thurs next week, and then I have fucking mock exams in Feb when Josh is here. -_-
Still no word from Oberlin...getting more and more tense about it. I want to know once and for all which part of Ohio I'll be living in, central/north or north-east. :P Both places are equally as cold and devoid of activity aside from college. Ah well...Josh and I seem to have figured out our plans for getting me into the country permanently, but that's a few months away right now...
Today I treated myself to some new make-up, actual nice products rather than the cheap crap I used to buy. I haven't tried any of it yet (expensive bottles are so fucking tiny) but I'll probably look like a disaster anyway. :D Ah who cares, just making an attempt to glam myself up a bit. If only I could figure out how to apply eye liner. I also bought American Psycho and Igby Goes Down on DVD (and got IDed in the process, haha). I've been buying an unsual amount of films lately; got Following (!!!!!) and Jackass the other week.
I suddenly have loads of things to do before February and then summer. I gotta see if I can go to Cali in April (plzplzplzplzplz), then save for a ticket to college, as well as saving for college itself. No more clothes, make-up, books or films. I need to buy something for Valentine's Day, plan things to do next month apart from video games and sex, and catch up a load of schoolwork. As always happens when I'm busy, I end up getting really into something totally different, usually writing. This time it's reading and FFXI. Reading 1984 again right now, just finished The Fountainhead. I feel I'm getting much more from 1984 this time around. I also have a series of writing projects lined up, including:
*reworking These Broken Wings after having many new ideas that make the story less, well, crap
*completing Float sequel (now called The State We're In)
*finishing my Christmas short story
*some sort of fantasy set in FFXI world (NOT, repeat NOT a fanfic)
*writing my own episode of the Weekenders
It's only Janurary 10th and already my plate it overful. Josh is arriving in 24 days...wow. :O posted
by jub at 5:47 PM
Writing, reading, RPGs, F1, music, soaps, cricket, Radiohead, wasting my life online :{
Favourite Bishounen:
Gackt, Kaoru (Dir en grey), Kuja, Sephiroth, Tamahome, Squall, Auron
Favourite Games:
Final Fantasy, Xenogears, Ico, Suikoden 2, Diablo 2
Tasks:
Driving theory papers Driving theory test Driving test Relearn maths SAT Visit Fulbright Association College application requirements Theory test book UCAS form See Radiohead Flaming Lips tickets Read ISH2004 Oberlin application Oberlin recommendations Oberlin portfolio Tax return Schedule Bates interview Study Italian history Sociology essay Synoptic sociology paper Talking Heads paper Translate Chaucer/paper Russian history paper
